PEACE, FREEDOM, LOVE, JOY
My darling daughter Lily was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer three days after her second birthday. After three months of harrowing chemotherapy that would scare any grown man, we got to have five weeks of her at home, unhooked from all the monitors and finally able to leave her hospital bed. This is my story of the moments leading up to her taking her last breath. It proves to me that we don't "die", that we in fact live on in spirit. This experience soothes this grieving mother's heart every moment of every day. I hope it is helpful to other grieving people, especially grieving mothers.
During the last few days of her life, we constantly reassured Lily of our love for her, how we knew she loved us, that we were so proud of her and that we would always be together. To keep this promise to her, I decided that I was going to keep myself as calm as I could to help Lily’s transition to spirit and so that when the moment came, I could always feel her near me.
When the moment came and she left her body for the final time, I praised her for how well she had done and that I loved her and as calmly as I could with a trembling body, I waited.
While those around me were rightly filled with inconsolable grief, I felt the room immediately fill with a sense of deep peace. I relaxed into it over the next few minutes and I felt an increasingly overwhelming, overpowering, almost ecstatic sense of a huge and glorious being fill the room.
As much as I love our beautiful blond Lily, it was clear to me, at this point, that Lily was far more than our beloved, darling little two year old girl. She is a magnificent being who I am honoured to say was entrusted to me and all those who loved her.
What followed next was nothing short of breathtaking. This being that was Lily powerfully exuded an immense feeling of indescribable love and freedom (from that pain-riddled, sick body of hers) that was so huge and pure and even though I felt it inappropriate, it made me want to smile, it left me perplexed, feeling only outrageous joy and love; so enormous a love that it can’t be described fully. If you imagine a goddess’s spirit wrapping you in divine love, this is the closest image I can give you. I felt I could reach out and touch it.
I once heard that when one passes out of the body, they quote …‘RE-EMERGE POWERFULLY INTO SPIRIT’. This experience was exactly that. Lily left her body just before 11pm that night, but she hasn’t gone. She is still here. She is still here. She is still here. She is still here. And so is your loved one.
Lily didn’t want to go, she held on and on, and the only tear I saw her cry in the last several weeks of her life, was the single tear she cried a few moments before she passed, when she finally knew that she must. But this physical life is not all there is. The world of Spirit is our primary reality. Our souls remain together, not just for this lifetime, but forever. Of this I have unwavering faith.
I have a facebook page https://www.facebook.com/soulsoothingcardsforgrief which I update daily with uplifting and positive messages to help others through their grief. I find helping others is helping myself. If it feels right to you please have a look and "like" it to receive my daily postings. If you are grieving, I send loving thoughts to you. Much love, Erica Farrimond
Erica, your story is powerful and beautiful!!! I am in awe of your courage and strength as a mother and how you faced death with this deep and profound knowing and understanding and peace… it truly is a story that stirs my heart with emotion and in a very special way. I know that she is with you always and no doubt, she is helping you to grow the greatest parts of who you are so that you can shine and be what it is you were meant to be in this life. love and spirit never dies!!!! Thank you for sharing Erica!!!! I know your story will touch the lives of all who read!!! Blessings!!!! Tina
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